♥ 昨天是我的恋人 , 今天是我的爱人 ,明天是离开我的人

was sick ytd , so missed out my two hour training ... hmm changed to monday =)

ying came to my house find me ... around ten plus leelian came too ... slacktill 2 plus yue hua ask if we wanted go boat quay drink ... ying din wanna go so me and leelian went ... yue hua bf came to fetch us ... went beerbelly and drank till 5 plus .. then her bf drove us back .. =) yue hua was DRUNK! lol..

Firstly tele-visit sebas at changi , then met leelian @ grandma shop ..

bused over to katong .. sang k @ teo heng ... enjoyed=)

then walk walk @ marine parade .. then bused home ...

tomorrow will be their final court *pray* .. shit ... i think im sick already ...

CDW, i don know why .. your picture is still fixed in my mind .. dough how cold you were ..

im feeling so sad inside , i feel like crying but i dont know how anymore ..

everytime i called to ask you about the thing , my main purpose was just to hear your voice .. but

your cold voice turn me away ..

why did you change so sudden?

was it just a game from the start?

went for interview at amk just now .. Llian came over my house then we cabbed there .. will be having my 2hour training on friday .. hmm .. after interview walk around amk while waiting for jasmine .. she v long can .. lol .. wait for Llian eat finish we got some stupid idea ... walk to inter dont know that what bus .. finally decided to take 22 .. half way thru .. we alight caux , YES! geylang .. we this 3 idiot from Lor 1 walk to Lor 44 .. power man ! then went grandlink lan shop ..

slack , pei jasmine wait bus then i cabbed home .. tml visiting sebas ... and yeah yeah ... go sing K

slept for 2 hours woke up prepare and went for their court ! pass midnight le .. 27 0ctober ..

Happy Birthday Sebas ! hais .. you're inside .. hope you'll faster recieve till the birthday card we sent you .. coming thur is their final court le ... faster sentence faster come out better ba .. =)after that me and jas went around chinatown ... we tried to do self tattoo but failed .. lol..so we decided to go city plaza .. leelian came .. slack ... shall not talk bout the throw face part man ..lol..left there around ten .. jas bused home , leelian came over my house downstair slack again .. tml visiting bro .. hope can make it .. pray that tml interview will be ok.. i need job , need money !!

finally visit till sebas .. he keep nag nag nag .. hmmm.. he's birthday coming soon .. sad that he cant celebrate outside .. after visit him me and jas went my grandma shop eat then she follow me with family to view flat . alas at night drinking again .. she bangs then nana .. somethings happen that day ! fuck tt guy who keep aiming my head .. lol.. back to nana ... but everyone was alr moodless so all cabbed home .. next day again ... she bangs , nana then breakfast at i think tiong bahru ! finally home !

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nothing to blog about my everyday life actually .. caux everyday is drink drink drink !

im so confused .. had stop work at fatcat already but been there these two days ...

happy birthday darling ying =) hope you enjoy that night .. but after you gone more happening you know? all drunk ... all went stage ! many things happen ... i seriously hate this feeling !

someone tell me .. should i just let go?

work last night was another drunk night .. thats my life ..

went with family to view flat and was late for work when i was suppose to reach at 9 pm ..

reached work at 10 and drown myself with martell first =) took my pay ytd .. woo..but but have to wait for bey to bank in for me 1st and wait another 2 days before i can go shopping man ! richard came down ytd too but finish off their martell they went elsewhere .. bey came and join huei's table.. ok , i know im a fool last night .. sorry to those that i've made them piss off with me .. but that's me when im drunk ! so accept it .lol! left to woodlands again slept till 3 plus bey ask me help him take cough mixture .. went to amk clinic .. waited quite long .. after that went to his friend angkong shop .. smoke and talk there .. funny la his friend .. alot jokes ! and ya ! he can tell fortune too man .. he told me i should , lower down my temper .. tell me not to vent anger on my family people .. true ! i should try he say that will be good for me .. but sometimes i just cant control , how? love, its nice spending time with you .. but i dont know how to put trust on people again . reached home at 7 , bath , watch tv .. and later will be time im gonna fly .woo "i believe i can fly" the sentence i always say in fatcat ! hoho ...

051009 went for peter's birthday at home team chalet ..

quite a fun night .. drink , games and woo .. lol

took photos but its all in gina cam..

left there around 6 am cabed with leng home

reached home cant sleep all the way ..

talk with bey on the phone till 11

special day ? should i put it that way ?

or maybe no ?

061009 -last min went down fatcat even when im not working .. thanks to brother huei uh and richmond .. ask me go down when i actually plan to stay home to pg .. arrgghh ..

bey came down to acc me too .. richmond was abit high uh .. lol .. quite a long but not very long story , just that im lazy to mention it ...lol.. left with bey to his home and now im back to my own home .. woo .. have to work tonight =) when will i get my pay man ...? haha ..

msg with jas last night , was quite sad after seeing her msg .. hai .. lets not think so much anymore ..

i dont know how should i actually explain this ..
i dont want to ask for more ..
i dont want to be the one being heartbroken in the end ..
i dont know if i should go with how i felt or plainly just another one who's gonna pass by.. i dont know anything ..

last sat at work , someone play that song "waiting for you"everything flash back , someone told me , because i still have a thing or so ..but, its been so long .. 3years has pass .. after that someone told me that .. i became so confused .. all along i tot i hated you more .. but why after what i heard i start to feel confused?

allright .. ytd work was allright .. waited till quite late before there's customer .. ok , stupid richard gave me another surprise .. i sat another free cab ytd and a free packet of cig ! shiok la !

had a few video taken at work .. feel like uploading .. but i know someone will kills me if she ever saw it on my blog or anywhere ..hoho .. shall stop here .. going for peter birthday !!

im getting tired of blog .. suddenly i felt that is so rubbish ..

went to their court .. postpone again .. till 26 oct .. and on the 27 oct will be sebas birthday ..

=( everything changed so fast .. why .. ? i cannot find someone to trust ..

everyone says their your friend .. but are they true ? i tot blog can be the way where you can say everything .. but i realise its where you let everyone knows about everything ..

i dont blame that right now its a distance , whereby we created ourselves. let it be that way .. =)

i miss sebastian kwek ching yi .. i miss grandpa .. at times . .. i still cant accept the fact that one is inside , one is gone forever .. for sebas , i know if he's inside its a best way for him to change .. and i hope he really does so ..we're waiting for you !