♥ 昨天是我的恋人 , 今天是我的爱人 ,明天是离开我的人

mickey ! cute ! i know man=)

ah hoe donut !! hoho!thanks man !

me and leelian doggie =) haha ! where's ying hamster ?

30 july 09 - close shop early , went home bath etc and send baby to buangkok house ..

went boat quay with my two precious .. @ there got abit of things happen .. shall not mention .. one man suddenly came over and bought us toys man! leelian and i get the dog and ying get the hamster ! super cute but the person who bought it is super the not cute=) woohoo.. drank beer then last time customer came to open martell for us ..

soon , drank again .. ask one of my friend send the 2 girls back then back home =)

31 july 09 - sad day man! cabbed to jasmine house fetch her and then to qrp again ..

twice already !! we still don have the fate to see sebas =( left there and cabbed to bugis..

eat , job hunting and then go find my daughter !! hoho !! late ah she ..! after job interview bused to jamine house and then cabbed home .. met ah hoe at downstair .. woo .. thanks for the donut man.. =) chat chat and now back home .. im tired already ! nights

jas and voxy @ leelian shop =)

daughter and mother !

before bringing baby to buangkok

boat quay @ she bangs

reach home kelly-ed and doin nothing =(

im so bored can , i cant wait till thursday night ..

woohoo .. drinking session again ... people always ask me you dont drink will die meh?

yea , seriously i guess i will die .. im sinking deeper to something again ..

bad for health ? i know =) some only tend to see the outer side yet they never bother to see the inside too .. why am i feeling so down everyday .. im always asking myself ..

[[sebas, how are you inside ... i listen to the song tao tai ytd .. and i don know why i cried ..

when you're around whenever you play this song i feel so noisy .. why do people always treasure when its gone ? i know i will never wanna hear this song again .. =( ]] when someone feels like they need you, then they'll realise you are not around .. yea, i don need someone like this .. you know im talking about you .. please get lost of my life .. i told myself i will never want someone like you in my life ! fuck off ! bein mean? no im not !

250709- went to nieki chalet , happy birthday ms nieki ..
play games and drink till drunk again ..reach home don know what time already =)

260709 - went for work , reach home and sleep =)

270709 - went for work , close shop early and went to qrp to visit sebas ..
met jasmine and ah choi @ queesway .. sad to hear that we cant visit him in the end..
then me and jas went to marine parade .. walk then went to eat and cabbed home.
im feeling low now.. yupp , no one understand .. what are friends for ? they just fucking call u when they need you! please don use the word sister when they are just painly names you call !

* sometimes i just wonder how do you define a friend? a good friend? a sister? a best friend ?
they just come and go.. dont they? yea , when you does something wrong, yupp! they will talk about you ..and all sort of things .yet they don see themselves in wrong. whatever , chidish , lame , small gas you name it.. i fucking hell dont give a damn ! if u think im talking about you then be it .. who gives a damn about how u feel when u don even think about how others feel ..

if it's gonna be true , 3 years? what will i be like then..
why god always so unfair to the 2 of us?
we are always so close yet so far ...
i know if you go in is good for you ..
at least you wont have to hide everyday worrying when n when you'll be caught..
the last few days memories will be kept in heart for a long long time ..
when i start looking at those photo with took, i cannot control the tears ..
i realise i cannot lose a brother like you .. other people may hate u and etc..but i will never ..
now inside , u must be worrying bout jasmine , but don worry i will help u take care of her .
im so sorry , when last night u call and wanted to tell u've been caught yet i din answer .
me and jasmine will be waiting for your letter.. hope when u come out you'll be a changed person
who knows how to think about your future ! sebastian kwek ching yi , my brother always . take care ! grandpa will bless you =)

200709- sebas and jasmine came to find me at work place .. close shop and went home to change etc .. went city plaza for eyelash extension .. woohoo =) matthew came to meet us too and cabbed to bugis .. saw ah wah n ah boon on the road .. then ask ah wah meet me at leelian shop, smoke and talk awhile they left and off we went to newton to eat .. matthew left first , then the 3 of us went to mustafa again.. walk awhile and cabbed home

210709 - leelian came my work find me , then sebas jasmine came over too ..

close shop then leelian follow me home and change and etc ...

me and leelian went to find lanying at her work place .. ask her close shop then we went bugis street walk walk .. after that went boat quay ..saw big head and co there , leelian n lanying left first..

sebas , jas , seamus and 1 guy came find me @ boat quay ...

drink martell .. then richard and 1 guy came over ...finish the drink and left ..

met jordan @ my block downstair awhile and back home =)

220709 - after work met leng @ boat quay drink again, reach there saw some familiar face , soon they ask us join their table, drink then leng friend came to find us .. at last ... im drunk again..

230709 - overslept , nvr went for work.. jasmine call me n say sebas kena catch =(

lost for words .. damn no mood now ... 3 years again then can see him =( sebas we r waiting for u !

i cant sleep well ytd!!! firstly it was a very scary dreamt that woke me up breathless=('
shall not mention it anymore ...
then , the agent keep bringing people to view flat ..
then my phone keep ringing ...dots ..
soon ... its time for work again ..drag myself to bathroom ...
and nothing much about my day .. look at eden photo below ...
so cute right ? so different from the mother n father !!!
hahahha..

talk with leng the whole night ytd, we call and disiao the cheeleng..

he v cb sia , call back and say can i know u ? wtf, so desperate meh?

never see face also wanna know the person ..! after she put down i went to shower ..

then the weihao call me .. talk to him till 6 ? i forgot then he went to sleep ..

i ate the cough med also feel asleep . woke up 9 to go for grandpa 100th day..

went mandai then to blastier , after finish the whole family went to eat ba kut teh ..

so weather fucking hot can ! after eating and im back home =)

sian ah ! tml got work again !! another 2 weeks with no rest .! done ..i eat my med super tired already !

work half way ytd went to see a doctor , fuck .. xin ku till like shit ...

call leelian and sebas , all of us the same feeling ..

for a moment i tot , wa really so suay meh ..

doctor took my temp 38.7 ..he say if by friday still the same then come bk for review ..

reach home ate my med and sleep all the way =)

but i still abit like fuck =(

heard something from my grandma today , i super feel so dulan ..

my aunt say i teach dic pg? omg .. it was actually the other way round man ..

i cant be bothered to xplain .. if assuming it was like that makes her feel her son was the best !!!

then be it .. it wont make any difference if i xplain .. just wasting my time and effort ..

sometimes ,selfishness makes one so ugly ! i dont deny sometimes my aunt treat me good but i really cant read thur her mind , the way she treat sebas is like fuck , maybe in order to protect dic , i really don know ...if only my mum and grandpa was still around , me and sebas wont be treated like FFFFFF !!!!! Aunt, " dont make promises to a dead person when you know u cant do it"!!

still the same after so long =)

been working everyday , and seriously feel so tired of it =(

i finally find this sentence so true" so little time, so much things to do"

finish work early ytd , leelian came find me then went to my house..

she wait for me make up then we cabbed to city plaza to do my hair..

sebas and jasmine was waiting there for me ..

after doin.. we cabbed to boat quay and drink .. yea .. my idea ..i cannot don drink can! lol.

sebas and jas left early .. me and leelian contiune .. after that richard came to find me ..

had fun ytd but i overslept today ...

never go work ? haha .. my grandma wake me up like siao ..

but seriously i din hear it uh ..no work no money? im tired this way ..

can money make you happy? but why aint i feeling happy at all ?

i fucking hell hate those who keeps asking about my grandpa ..

i cant forget , and the hurts keep stabbing in ..

grandpa , this friday will be your 100th day..

so fast ? i miss you seriously !=(

*i know you are blessing from above=)

ytd was my little boy's birthday ,

happy birthday jeron!! =)

this year we cant celebrate his birthday caux grandpa just pass away =(

so just bought him to grandma house & he went downstair to play the funfair..

he damn cute la ..

around 7 baby say he want he kfc , so i order ..

sebas & jasmine came over ..

left around 9 plus and i went boat quay with leng , peter , annie..

annie bf join later on ...

again , i was drunk ..

reach home around 6 plus ... damn shag .. i hate martell man !

sebas & jeron enjoying kfc

my life =)

webcams

i always miss you like before =(

pg @ home today , feeling so vexed all of a sudden ..

idk why .. suppose to meet maine @ st james ..

but been pg-ing the whole day till forget ..

eric ask me waatch transformer with him but lazyness spoilt it ..

next week onwards i'll be busy .. no time for drinking , no time for all things..

because grandma we'll be gg for eyes op and i need to help her..

maybe i can take this chance to save money ..

maybe? who knows temptation will spoil my plan..

waiting for brina photo , then me n maine will start our business thing..

hope my plan will go smoothly .. i need to think for future .. =)

maine & elton came over my house and fetch me to brina house..

elton drop us there and left for work

reach brina house around 7, we went to see her baby ..

damn small .. lols ..

see her cute daughter below ..

her baby keep sleeping , yeah i know baby's only sleep ..

so, we're looking @ clothes and talking bout our business thingy ..

left brina house @ 8 ..

me and maine went tampinese 1 ..

nothing no walk , so i say go TM better la ..

also nothing to walk , caux most shop closing ..

then cab over to maine house .. slack and talk cock ..

she's busy taking those foto for those clothes

and i started 2 bling my phone ..

the outcome sucks ..

left her house @ 12 plus ...

and cabbeb home =)

Brina's Daughter

maine family member , lols

yupp , super great sis , charmaine

@ maine house

*也許 , we might met again ..

but i probably forgotten those things we ever had ..

也許 you had always been a stranger in the start .

you've made me fallen so many times ..

i always learn to be strong ..

and i'll be stronger this time ..

you never realise ur mistake , my pain ..

i always wake up making the same mistake ,

the same mistake of thinking bout you ..

but its also you that wake me up from everything ..

you got what u wanted ..

and i knew what i wanted ..

也許 everything is predestined ..

i'll leave with no tears ..

because everything happens for a reason ..

Whats LOVE , Whats LUST ?

just a common game for girls and boys =)